A Poem ;


The Dopamine Queen

On last night’s episode of no sleep:

It’s weird making everyday decisions

When you wanted your everydays to be over

Like what to watch on the television

Or how much to drink so you won’t be hungover

Brush spit, eggs bacon, jeans t-shirt

Make this left, politely smile, wish it didn’t hurt

You see I wasn’t supposed to be here

I had a plan and a timeline and the means

Because death was never my fear

It was having to endure while coming apart at the seems

The first day of spring in an odd numbered year

I spent in a psych ward covered in tears

This isn’t what I dreamt of when I was little

How could I have known, while I was dressing my Barbies

My gowns would be made for hospitals

Not evenings proms or parties.

But here I am, still alive

Despite my efforts the odds…

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About Jonathan Caswell

Poet, author, servant of God the Heavenly father and the Lord Jesus Christ...working out his salvation with fear and trembling. - Not trusting in his own deeds, but depending totally upon the finished sacrificial work of Jesus Christ to be, by God's reckoning, a new creature, clothed in Christ's righteousness...which mortal humankind can never attain by their own weak efforts, apart from faith in Christ's work on our behalf. - College-educated, yet wise enough to see that what a man does will not be his ultimate identity nor affect how God sees him or her. - Called by God to do a very difficult thing...apart from God's grace, mercy and strength...to love the sinner (which we all--by nature--are) but hate the sin, which is only paid through Christ, God's Son, - My own God-given gift is that of being a Poet..showing that in all parts of life...God has a loving part in it...as hard as that is to always understand or perceive...given life's realities! Come join me on my journey of discovery?.

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